coarse

i want to say so much. but i won't. the words are gone. whispered deep in my own head. forgotten. oh well. i'm swallowing at 23 so ready for the rest. my throat is calous and hard. i could swallow razors blades. i do swallow razor blades. it's pathetic how i downplay my disdane for this life. my morals are sidelined living in form not reality. it's all a dream. i'm learning. i'll never learn.